today i've been feeling headache for the whole day. Maybe because exam is coming and assignment need to be hand up soon. stress making me headache. sometime i wonder why each time i feeling stress, the one that important to me not beside me. or do i have someone that important to me? maybe no, maybe yes. but the reality is that that person neither beside me or encouraging me. my head as if going to blast off soon. like there is a time boom inside my head.

after finish my course i still unable to have any fun. i need to find job and earn for living. my life is nothing more than just keep on survive. i achieve nothing in my life. i don't desire for anything. maybe i desire for something but i unable to get it. therefore, there is nothing that i able to achieve in my life. my future has lost since that day... everything crumble to ashes... i unable to build it again with my own two hand. there isn't anyone supporting me... what should i do and what should be done. haha, maybe the world is laughing at me. laugh how worthless i am. she gave up on me becoz of how worthless i am. and she find someone who are much more capable than me... someone who 100 times better than me in any part. knowledge, appearance, background, everything...... i'm nothing... kenneth soon and stupig is nothing....... face it kenneth... ppl like you deserve nothing... i can't blame anyone... blame yourself for being born in such way... blame nobody but yourself.....