Finally finish my exam and yesterday i just back from London... i never expect that London would be this complex. now i kinda confuse on what i want to do from now onward, maybe becoz i don't have dream or don't have any goal.

few day before exam, i send a card for her and something together with the card... well, reach to her a not i not sure but i just hope will reach to her... to be honest after she receive i don't expect anything at all... haha... well, i'm nothing to her in the 1st place. anyway, atleast more or less i doing something i wan to... atleast better than nothing...

i don't know what kind of life will i face from now on... good or bad... well, i more expect to be bad more than good since that nothing good always come to me... haizzz, now in London unable to get any job... having a hard life without happiness.... but some ppl having a hard life but with happiness in it... that's something that i wanted... but i don't think i will achieve it in my life... coz my happiness not with my anymore...