last night i had a dream. a dream that i wish i never wake up. i dream that i went back malaysia. meet my family and fren. and then i was preparing to meet yee ling... thinking of where to go, what to do and all the planning. i also remind myself to remember bring the present i bought for her during in oversea. i wanted to meet her so much... but the dream didn't last long and i woke up. reality is that i need to prepared to work. not to meet her... i miss yee ling...

i wanted to go back to malaysia and meet her now... however dream always is dream. unless make it to reality. if not, it will always stay as a dream. i wish to understand her more... i know in the past i always think that i fully understand her but i'm not. so i hope that she let me understand her more now... i don't mind take time to understand her... if only she let me do so... i know it's worth... it's more worth than anything...

it's been very long since i last write a blog... i been wondering... i'm not happy working there... actually i think where i work is the same... since the day i know the truth of working in china town there isn't any place that will belong to me... everyday i doing the same thing... feel so bored... feel unhappy at there... but if for survive that i keep working there...

i miss yee ling alot... i wonder what she doing.. i wonder what she thinking... last night i suddenly think back the time we talk back again. she said that if there a chance to turn back the time she will never want to leave me... i wish to ask her if her answer still the same now... i wish i could go back now... i wish to see her now... wish to be beside her... i wonder if she waiting for me... ever since last two month we seldom talk to each other... sometime she doesn't have anything to said to me as well... i'm the only one who do the talking... sometime i want to call her but afraid of disturb her... i'm thinking when my next day off i wanted to call her and have a chat... i try to think as many topic as possible but sometime there isn't any idea in my mine... the only thing i always ask is did she go anywhere? wat she doing? and how she doing? after that we just keep quiet until one of us offline...

i wonder why she doesn't ask my condition... she used to keep wait for me online... always hope that i can talk to her but... maybe she got her family now... so she spend time with her family more.....

sometime i feel so lonely... i wish she were by myside... accompany me... fill me in with her warm feeling and take away my loneliness...