yesterday i saw her online... as usual i kept quiet and i went out for a walk, wish that when i'm back she in offline state... going to be 3 year soon... being alone for so long... losing someone important is pain... many people asking me when i'm going back... even myself don't know do i want to back... are there anything worth for me to go back but in the same time, are there anything worth for me to stay... no matter where i go, is all the same... nothing different...

until recently i realise that i never heard my phone ring tone for very long. it feel so lonely... it use to ring alot. atleast once a day. but now it won't ring once a month... others talk to their dear one while what i have is a photo... i got nothing.....