i lost everything... god... are you enough making fun of me? are you happy with what i have now? then can you grant me a wish... i wish to end my life here... i don't care how or what... i had enough... i just a selfish and childish idiot... now i only wish to die... i doesn't want a new life... i don't want born as a human or even animal... i just want to end everything... disappear...

she said before that im' a sun to her... no.. .i'm not a sun... i just a piece of rock that she pick me up on the floor.... sun is noble... sun is mighty... sun give ppl future and had it's own duty of future... but i just a piece of rock... just waiting for ppl to step on and break... become a more small piece of rock...

now i know she doesn't love me all this time... she pity me... hahaha... kenneth the rubbish finally being pity... i wonder what i had done wrong... i lost everything.. i just being made fun... i'm nothing.. i can't gain anything... i won't have any future... i'm just a piece of shit... i don't need anyone care me anymore... i just a selfish person... i got nothing... i useless... just let me die... cancer... accident or anything...

i don't want anything... i dont' want future, dream, money, life, family or fren... i don't need anything or anymore... i just want to die... pls... let me end now and here.....

i won't have a future... it's end here... she never love me... i being pity... she never meant about it... i just a stepping stone... yeah.. .in the world of reality those who idiot are being step on... i nothing... if he treat her nice theni don't have to say or wish anything else...

kenneth soon is nothing nothing nothing................................. she won't care me... she won't love me... yeah... i selfish... i only want she be my gf and someone i love... not friend or anyhitng... she right... everyone right and i'm all wrong... i wrong since she left me... i wrong since i was born..... kenneth soon always wrong.... kenneth soon really is just a stupig.....