Just now i receive Yee Ling sms. i was very happy when suddenly she her name in my phone. but i didn't reply coz my phone out of credit. then i felt strange that why will she suddenly sms me. then i wonder izzit that the present i gave her has reach her.

my mind start to think stupid thing. i wondering if i never gave her the present or the present didn't reach to her 2day. will she sms me? will she just have the feeling sms to me be4 she sleep? or just becoz the present only she sms me? i know i'm very stupid. i know i very stupid in thinking of such question.

when i receive her sms was the time i need to let my lecturer to see my draft of my work. honestly, after gave him look at my draft i feel very down. because need to rewrite my work again. as for my fren, they seem to be don't have problem. well, it's been like this everytime. i always the last one no matter in wat..... haizzz..... together with my thinking just now... i feel my heart very pain...

now i sitting infront of the college computer. i have the feeling of sad... my heart very pain... i very confuse.... really confuse.... i don't know what should i do.......... that time i should have don't come here..... maybe i should have just.........

I feel myself so useless... Yee Ling, wat will do? wat will u said to me if u know about this? but maybe u will never know..... maybe u right or the world was right that i not suitable for you... a useless guy like me shouldn't be wif you... not enough for you... i might as well just... be dissapear or something...

But Yee Ling, i never felt useless or being alone when i was with you, not just when we together but together before we be together... thanks alot... atleast that was the time i feel that i'm successful but i think i never feel that anymore in my life since the day u leave me, i been a failure since the day u leave me......... however, thanks... i know that you are the only one for me but maybe in this life i'm not for you . maybe dream and miracle that the only thing is left for me but this two thing never happen... especially to a guy that useless... and that is me...