happy chinese new year to myself... a new year... should my new sentence be a new beginning or a new nightmare...

i don't know... but either which one i don't think any different at all... good thing might just an illusion to me... since i always been in a dream... when i woke up... everything became unpleasant reality. fake , lie, selfish, everything happen infront of my eyes.....

valentine day... i always hope to be with her at this special day... but never ever those day will come anymore... sad...

i feel so tired from work today... pain all over my body... either inside or outside i feel pain as well...

new year...... nothing new to me