am i happy with my life now? deep down my heart, i still feel pain and sadness........ so hard to live... hard to breath... sometime life means nothing to me anymore... my happiness.... where it gone... am i having happiness now? i only laugh at during with someone else... when i'm alone i don't feel like want to smile at all... as if it was all lie when i smile... my true feeling is sad and lonely...

the happiness i always wait is gone...