my job current going quite well... but sometime still will get scold, this is something that i already expected. but better than being fired. just have to learn. i think after a time i will learn everything.

few day ago i dream of yee ling. for the past 2 years, this is the 1st time i able to dream happiness with her. i dream that i holding her hand. go alot of places wth her. no matter what or how she never let go my hand. i was so happy. i kinda doesn't want wake up from that dream. however, i need to wake up as well... at that time i'm happy and hope that it will become reality. when i on the way to work, i call yee ling and tell her that i dream about her. want to share my happiness... sometime i really happy that i able to go through life like this with her again. even though by directly face to face but atleast is a good start.

however, sometime when read her blog i will feel unhappy... especially 2day. she write about how she feel sad about her past. actually everything she feel now is no diff than when she leave me. about promise, about missing, about tears, cry, forget, and many more. like when i know she went to genting i'm so sad and scare.... scare of losing her totally..... that was my past. but now, i don't think of that anymore. because even it's not by my side, but she come back to talk to me again. even though she didn't cheer me up during she leave me but doesn't mean i must leave her alone during she in a bad time. i know i unable to do much compare to golden fish guy. becoz he rich, can make thing more easier... while i'm still earning money at a very far place. but between yee ling and money. i will choose yee ling... in these 2 years i realise what's important to me. i thought one day yee ling will become someone that i won't bother anymore because she leave me like nothing. but it's not... she so important to me that i unable to lose her anymore. this time if we able to be together... i pray and i hope... she will be the same as my dream... never let go my hand anymore... never leave me alone whenever i sad. in the same time, i will do my best for her. i will do my best never make her tears... do my best to make her happy always...

sometime i receive her sms... i'm very happy of how she miss me. it's makes my heart warm and cheer me up during i work. i really need those cheer sometime... in order to keep standing. i will try to call her too... so that she won't feel lonely always... i know i can't do much but i try my best... i hope she will feel better one day. sometime i might just a bit selfish that saying she must wait me 2 years... even though she is single now i can't be selfish... maybe take it easy. sometime i just being impatient...

yee ling, if u read this... don't sad... there are always those encourage u... not nobody encourage u. u at so far but u keep encourage me. if wasn't because of you. do you think i able to keep on survive? i don't so... because i always keep u in my heart. not my mind... remember that.. i really miss you... i hope you able to find me in your heart. i'm just somewhere in the corner only. hehehe... beebeebee