on sunday that night, i keep think of her... it was a special day for lover that day... i been thinking is she with that gut that day... what they doing... i dunno... i really dunno... what i know that I'm the one for not going anywhere and not doing anything... lonely... now, sadness, loneliness and depress is the only feeling i have... where is my happiness go... where is the usual smile i always have... where is my carefree that always make ppl around me laugh and smile... i miss her till tears again... wat i gonna do...

yesterday i got a meeting... in the morning got class and evening got meeting till 9.35pm... i really tired... when reach home is already around 10.30pm... i already feel headache that time... so i really early when to sleep... but i didn't really fall asleep, my mind still working and my mind still thinking of her... i feel so suffer... i dun wan think. i wan rest... i really wan cry that time but i so tired that i dun have the strength to cry at all... i wonder does anyone know the feel of wan cry but dun have the strength to cry... when onli i get out of this... a month... half month... half year... or a few year.... the onli thing i know that a heart that been hurt is unable to recover at all... the scar are always at there... together and forever until the end of my life...