it's her birthday... and it's already pass... i ask lay ming to help me sms her... of course, without mention my name in it... even though yee ling ask to know who is it that sms her... but lay ming remain silent... i did it like this because i never wanted my name appear in her phone... or maybe i never wanted her know i still exist around her...

she abandon me... once again... 3 years ago and 3 years after... she abandon me for another guy again... i really want to know what am i to her... i love her... i really love her... i wait and wait and wait... but what i get in the end... nothing but pain and loneliness...

yee ling, what are you thinking? did she thinking why i dind't send you sms? not i didn't send but you did not know i send... because even if i sent what will you answer? and how you feel? just like 3 years ago, you feel nothing and just reply thanks...

i really hope all this just a dream... not too long ago we were still chatting in phone... u need me, u wish for me... and you wait for me... but why did you leave me again... why you treat me like this again.... i don't understand... am i just a rubbish... am i not worth.... i believe and trust you... but why did you follow someone else... why... tell me why...

yee ling, it may be pass but i really want to tell you myself that happy birthday and hope your wish come true, i miss you... and i love you...