just now i drank 3 bottle of beer... it's been a few month since the lastime i drink it... even though i kinda drunk but my mind still clear... i sat infront of my door keep think and think and think... i realise how stupid i am... how idiot i am... hahaha........ what i have been all this time... how much time and effort and hope did i put in it... hahaha... kenneth... you are nothing.... yeah, i'm nothing... because you not good enough... that's why she didn't choose you... because you not good enough she doesn't feel it worth to wait... hahaha... i always wrong... i always the worst one... i... i don't need anything any longer... i don't need it anymore....