it's been very long since i last write a blog... i been wondering... i'm not happy working there... actually i think where i work is the same... since the day i know the truth of working in china town there isn't any place that will belong to me... everyday i doing the same thing... feel so bored... feel unhappy at there... but if for survive that i keep working there...

i miss yee ling alot... i wonder what she doing.. i wonder what she thinking... last night i suddenly think back the time we talk back again. she said that if there a chance to turn back the time she will never want to leave me... i wish to ask her if her answer still the same now... i wish i could go back now... i wish to see her now... wish to be beside her... i wonder if she waiting for me... ever since last two month we seldom talk to each other... sometime she doesn't have anything to said to me as well... i'm the only one who do the talking... sometime i want to call her but afraid of disturb her... i'm thinking when my next day off i wanted to call her and have a chat... i try to think as many topic as possible but sometime there isn't any idea in my mine... the only thing i always ask is did she go anywhere? wat she doing? and how she doing? after that we just keep quiet until one of us offline...

i wonder why she doesn't ask my condition... she used to keep wait for me online... always hope that i can talk to her but... maybe she got her family now... so she spend time with her family more.....

sometime i feel so lonely... i wish she were by myside... accompany me... fill me in with her warm feeling and take away my loneliness...