finally.... i know it.... i know who..... it's so painful....... everytime the more i know the more pain i getting... this time the pain i felt is unbearable.... y i wan try to know it... why....tell me y..... i feel so pain....... as if i want to die now..... 2day is christmas... but what i get.... sadness is all i get...... painful...... what can i say more..... being cheated.... being lie....... being stupid........ now i know.... all this time i'm nothing..... i actually a rubbish...... kenneth is a rubbish.... nothing but a rubbish..... when will i die.... can it be more faster......

so this is what people always call as no choice..... just becoz u born of lack of those good or better thing, then u lost all...... just becoz u unable to do it u become abandon by the other after being used......... after being abandon u nothing but just a useless paper......... n i being born that way.... since the day i being useless to her... i'm nothing but a rubbish.... now i know wat my fate is......

dun say when thing don't belongs to ur then is not ur.... this is just an excuse....... then u tell me, people work far for wat.... people being loyal to something for wat...... in the end, they onli get what not urs then is not urs..... if like this work hard is pointless.... just sit and wait ur destiny come........ now i know my destiny is being useless.........

in the past, i thought being support by her, being encourage by her and being by her side, everything is not imposible..... but now.... it's change.... just becoz i lack of something..... i'm just nothing....... i'm just a piece of junk now.......... kenneth, face it... u just a piece of worthless junk......